Just call me a Chatty Kathy, but yesterday’s blog hop inspired me to tell my tale of fear, math & getting it done at all costs.
So one of the questions was “What do you wish you were more skilled at?” I answered math. The other question was “If you could change one thing about your life what would it be?” – I answered to have been a better student in University. So let me tell you my tale of
I have a Bachelor’s Degree in biological sciences & two of the required courses to graduate are statistical math and calculus. You NEED these courses or you cannot graduate.
Both these math courses are first year courses. I managed to eek out a 62% in stats, but I ended up dropping calculus after a few weeks. I decided that I would try again in second year & I failed out with a 32%.
So I’m in my final year & things weren’t going so well & I dropped Calculus again. I decided that I would go to work & take this course in the evening.
Now it’s do or die time. I absolutely NEED to pass this course or I won’t get my degree. I was so afraid, like quaking in my boots afraid, that I was going to have to explain to my Dad that the reason I can’t my degree is because I can’t pass a stupid math course.
The average University class lasts about 12 weeks. For those 12 weeks I was calculus’ bitch. When I got off work at 630 PM, I had my dinner & did calculus from 7PM until 12AM, Monday to Thursday. I did calculus all weekend & had a friend tutor me and help me with assignments. When I went to Florida to visit my parents for 2 weeks, I did calculus the entire time. I lived, breathed and dreamed math. If I wasn’t sleeping or working, I was doing math. I was going to pass this course, my shitty math skills be damned!
So the exam comes and then the waiting happens for my final grade. I got a 58%, which is almost a 100% increase from the time I failed. Great grade? Nope. But I did get to graduate. I never worked so hard at a school course in my life and it did pay off in the end. Miracles really do happen & fear is truly the great motivator.